by Michelle BravoTrying to define yourself at the tender age of 21 is one of the biggest conundrums a young adult could face. They strive their whole life trying to come up with an answer for this question. I myself am still trying to figure out who I am, who I want to be and where I want to go in my life. But then again, who isn’t or wasn’t at one point? We’re all just wandering through life half of the time anyway, walking towards the direction pointed to us. But, I do have a general sense of some of the characteristics that separate me from the rest of the crowd. I do realize how I react during stressful situations or trying times. How I deal with sadness or pain. Those are the moments when a person’s true character is revealed.
How someone identifies themselves is way different than how others perceive them; the way I think about myself isn't necessarily the way others think about me. For example, I asked one of my friends, “what is one defining quality that comes to mind when you think of me?” And she replied with “smart”. All I could think to respond was, why? This is a person who's known me for 8 years. And I definitely wasn't the sharpest tool in the box back then. That was the last answer I was expecting. Over the years I’ve heard: quiet, shy, introvert, wallflower, standoffish, antisocial, I’ve even heard stuck up. People have misinterpreted my lack of verbal expression for a person who is stuck up. Upon the confused look on my face she offered an explanation, “Just because you didn’t apply yourself before doesn’t mean you were any less smart back then. You’ve always been smart”. I thought about what she said that night, and I wondered if she thought she was smart herself. I'm the type of person that will Google, “can 911 track your exact location?” just because. For those of you that are curious, no, they can’t. Call from a nearby payphone in the case of an emergency and can’t speak, cell phones are almost impossible to track. I am someone who only has two games on their phone: solitaire and sudoku. I am a person who rather watch downloaded episodes off of Netflix, or even read on the train rather than listen to music. I’ve never stopped being the kid who sat alone at the end of the lunch table, back against the wall, and book in hand. I am a person who doesn’t mind being alone but does find luxury in another human’s company. A person who suffers in silence and panics under pressure. A person who cries when I’m angry and sulks privately when I’m sad. I’m just a person. A driven, shy, and genuine person.
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Joel
7/3/2017 01:07:12 pm
Very well written.
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